Silver Lining

I got to talk to my grandma on the phone today! She has had two good days now in a row! Hopefully she will stay on this track and be transferred to the rehab ward soon. It was so good to talk with her, even if it was just a few words. Lots of family was at the hospital today and I definitely think that is helping her to recover. Just knowing how much everyone loves her, I think it is giving her that hope and strength to get better. :)

Family

I went to visit my grandma again today. She slept throughout my time at the hospital. It was good because she was getting the rest that she needs to heal and my grandpa and I were able talk about life. My grandpa is such a wonderful and loving man. He loves my grandma so much and it shows just by the way he looks at her and speaks of her. Family is something that has such a strong bond. It can make its way through anything that life throws at it. I am truly realizing this now with my grandma not doing too well and just how quickly everyone is offering to help my grandpa out. I just wish we could all keep our priorities strait when everyone is doing well and we are just living day to day life. Why does it take a tragedy to bring everyone together? Why aren't we each others priorities when we are all happy and healthy? This is going to be my new years resolution for 2012 & I am starting it now.

Regret

Today my sister and I went to the hospital to visit my grandma who has recently suffered a TIA and then a full on stroke that has affected the left side of her brain (controls speech and thought process). She is unable to communicate and gets frustrated easily because she cannot gather her thoughts to verbalize what she wants to say. This brought tears to my eyes as I felt her frustration and realized that we may never hear the stories about our family history again. This is really difficult for me because I just met my grandma 8 years ago and have been so busy with my own life that I haven't spent very much time with her and my grandpa. This is were my Regret is eating away at me. I truly did not take advantage of the time I was given with her and now it is too late. Although she is still here with us, her mind is gone. I know I am a nurse and should be able to handle this better but it is so different when the patient is your family member. I love my grandma so much and want to thank her for bringing me into my dads side of the family with open loving arms. She is a wonderful lady who does not deserve to be suffering like this. I am wishing for a miracle that her brain is able to compensate for its losses and that she will regain her ability to think, process conversation and to verbalize her needs. Grandma, I love you.

Loving Craig's list!

Recently I have been stalking Craig's list like it is going out of style, and let me share with you that I have found some great treasures amongst all the junk. Josh and I have lived in our house for about 3 years and I am finally finding us all the items to finish our decorating. Here are a few of my recent treasures.

Living my 26th year with ease

It is a month after my 26th birthday and I just finished reading the blog about my 25th. I truly have changed over these past few years. I again spent my birthday relaxing and enjoying good friends in my company. I went to a dear friends' house the morning of my birthday to give her an iv since she had not been feeling well. I then spent the day at the craft store, Target, Marshall's, and the goodwill. I found some great crafting items and then went to dinner with a few close friends, Josh and my sister. It was a great dinner at a local cafe near our house (Kimberly's Cafe). I am loving the way life is falling into place and look forward to the year to come.